Sunday, January 04, 2009

New Year New Me?

So usually when the new Year rolls around I drink some champagne and make a list of all of the ways i will improve myself in the coming year. This year is different. I am already working out. I have no hope of losing weight until after May 20 and I have finally learned that I don't do well with New Years resolutions. Instead I made a list of projects for January. I do well with a list of small tasks that I can actually accomplish. I believe this is known as short term goals. I have already crossed three things off the list. Yeah me! It will be interesting to see what this year brings. I know life will be crazy for awhile and I know I am going to need to potty train Emelia but that is really all I can plan at this moment in time. If you know me you know that the inability to plan is like an inability to breathe. i am working on that for January and will probably be working on that straight through December's list.

Here are some things I am struggling with at the moment (besides the inability to plan)...

I feel fat. I know that I am pregnant so that is to be expected somewhat but I wish I could be one of those women who keep their shape and just look like they swallowed a ball. I do not look like that. I look like I swallowed the women from the before picture at Jenny craig. Everything has gotten bigger. Why is that?


I also have terrible pregnancy acne. Now I will confess there is some vanity in my distaste for my chin's new friends but mostly it HURTS. They are big cystic, you can't pop me pimples and they hurt. The bummer of it is that y ou can't use acne meds when you are pregnant. Isn't that just a big cosmic joke?

We are having a boy. Yes I will be caring for a baby boy. How does that work? I feel like the little boys I know are so different and I can't possibly begin to comprehend what to do with a boy. I have already begun to pray that God will help me to not compare them and to just love him for him and be content with who he is whoever that may be. Yikes! To top it all off Jeff and I are not even close to on the same page about names. I like Bennett and he likes Ananias. Yep you read that right...

Um okay I suppose that is about it for now. Time to make some supper.

4 comments:

Thuy said...

So happy to see an E post!

Thanks for sharing how pregnancy is affecting you physically and mentally. I think it can comfort lots of pregnant women who go through the same things. (Sorry that that fact alone may not provide enough comfort for you, though!) Hang in there, E. My prayers are with you.

Congrats on the boy!! Think of it this way - you and L will have lots to talk about! Would Jeff feel better if Ananias's middle name is Ryan?? Or Zeke?? What about Hezekiah?

Happy New Year, my friend! I really miss you. Let's talk soon. Hope we can PLAN to see each other this year! (See? Long-term planning doesn't have to go down the toilet entirely.)

Courtney said...

Just remind Jeff that if his name's Ananias his nickname will be Annie. ;)

Anonymous said...

Congrats on the boy! One question...how do you pronounce Anania?! Will call soon...
Penny

britt said...

I'm with Penny -- I don't even know how to pronounce Jeff's choice!

I think you'll be surprised at how easily a boy comes to you! Bring on rambuncuous! I had such fun with the little boys during my camp days.

Re: the breakouts, I really struggled with the meds -- look at Neutrogena's Skin ID stuff,it helped mine to clear up:
http://www.skinid.com